If it's meant to be, it will be.
Hello, it's been awhile. I've been super busy and recently, things have been spiralling out of control for me, emotionally. But because of this, I think it is healthy for me to be writing right now. First thing's first, B and I have broken up. I know, it's all sudden seeing as if you were to scroll down a few posts, you'd see me totally in love and weeping over the start of our ldr.
Mind you, we're not on really bad terms. Bottom line is that, nothing in the relationship went horribly wrong at all. Of course, there are things that could've been improved and there are reasons to why we broke up, reasons, that I would prefer to keep private. In a nutshell, feelings changed, priorities changed. I'm still hurting, seeing as this actually happened really recently, and it was all so sudden for me. So right now, my heart is still showing it's withdrawal symptoms, and it will for awhile. But what's for sure, is that the pain comes and goes in waves, but in time it gets easier. He is the first person, who's taught me how to love and what being loved feels like. Honestly, in a perfect world, I would've held on all the way. But ldr is tough guys, it really is. Distance takes a toll on all of us. Regardless, we agreed that, we've been a blessing to each other's lives. So us parting ways on good terms, might seem easier, but it hurts even more, because we don't resent each other at all. If time allows, and if we are able, we agreed that we would still want to be in each other's lives.
The future is unclear, but right now I'm just going to focus on me. Because right now, I want to, no. I NEED to pick myself back up. If it's meant to be, it will be. Who knows? Maybe we'll fall back to each other, maybe we won't. And maybe, just maybe we end up being really, really good friends, with stories to laugh about to each other. But right now, we'll hurt for awhile. And continue hurting for awhile, because what we had was good, and there is not one aspect of it I regret. Which makes leaving each other all the more harder.
I'll be ok, I know i'll be ok. I will never forget this experience, and this experience would help me grow. I'll be ok. He'll be ok. We'll both be ok. Now, it's time for us to focus on ourselves, and who know's what the future holds for us. Only time will tell now. Only time will tell.
Sincerely,
J.
Mind you, we're not on really bad terms. Bottom line is that, nothing in the relationship went horribly wrong at all. Of course, there are things that could've been improved and there are reasons to why we broke up, reasons, that I would prefer to keep private. In a nutshell, feelings changed, priorities changed. I'm still hurting, seeing as this actually happened really recently, and it was all so sudden for me. So right now, my heart is still showing it's withdrawal symptoms, and it will for awhile. But what's for sure, is that the pain comes and goes in waves, but in time it gets easier. He is the first person, who's taught me how to love and what being loved feels like. Honestly, in a perfect world, I would've held on all the way. But ldr is tough guys, it really is. Distance takes a toll on all of us. Regardless, we agreed that, we've been a blessing to each other's lives. So us parting ways on good terms, might seem easier, but it hurts even more, because we don't resent each other at all. If time allows, and if we are able, we agreed that we would still want to be in each other's lives.
The future is unclear, but right now I'm just going to focus on me. Because right now, I want to, no. I NEED to pick myself back up. If it's meant to be, it will be. Who knows? Maybe we'll fall back to each other, maybe we won't. And maybe, just maybe we end up being really, really good friends, with stories to laugh about to each other. But right now, we'll hurt for awhile. And continue hurting for awhile, because what we had was good, and there is not one aspect of it I regret. Which makes leaving each other all the more harder.
I'll be ok, I know i'll be ok. I will never forget this experience, and this experience would help me grow. I'll be ok. He'll be ok. We'll both be ok. Now, it's time for us to focus on ourselves, and who know's what the future holds for us. Only time will tell now. Only time will tell.
Sincerely,
J.
Inspirational read. Keep it up! So sorry to hear about your relationship though. But as they say, time heals all wounds. Stay strong and be positive!
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Hey! i just say this message as I've been super busy for awhile. Thank you so much :) I'm doing alot better now. Since I know/used to know you, hope you're doing well!
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