Here's what hurts about falling in love.

People always talk about how great it is to be in love. People also talk about how painful it is to be in love. But when you ask someone how painful it is, they usually can't describe it, because honestly, it's an unexplainable feeling, and it's only something you'll understand once you go through it.

So here's my best attempt, at explain how it feels like to hurt, when you're in love:

There is really no simple way to save it, so I'll just dive right in. Right off the bat, feeling heartbroken, is as if, your heart just shatters and fall into a million pieces. When a glass breaks, you hear the shatter, but when a heart breaks, nothing. Silence. It's as if there were no sounds worthy enough to represent it. As if all the sounds in the world condense into nothing. You literally feel the hurt in your chest, and will continue feeling it, for days, weeks, maybe even months. It goes away, and then every once in awhile, it comes back. You think about all the reasons it went wrong, and you remember all the reasons it was right.

The painful part about it, is that even if you shouldn't forgive that someone, you still do. Even if you should hate that someone, you don't. And that's what hurts - not being able to be angry at the person, or hate that person, or even remotely blame the person, because you just simply loved that person that much.

Every once in awhile, we go through a heartbreak that completely changes us as a person. And I kid you not, when you go through this kind of heartbreak, it hits you like a truck. It really fucking hits you hard. Some come out of it only to jump into a dating spree because of the void that is left in their hearts, some jump the gun, straight into a new relationship, because they just simply can't be alone, while some take the time off, to really grieve and mourn, and some just give up on finding love completely. It is these kind of heartbreaks, that end up changing the way you think about things, the way you start seeing situations, the way you start to think about love, and the ideas of love. And then, every now and again, it changes you into the person you become.

And maybe, just maybe one day, you'll be able to open up your heart again, as a new person. One day, you'll be able to love that special someone, be it someone from you past, or your present, or your future. That day may not be today, but you hope that one day, it'll happen. But for now you just continue hurting, until you wake up and realize you're not hurting anymore. But until that day, you keep moving, and keep living. Because right now, that's the only thing you can do.

Sincerely,

J